Rhymes, and times of hard ship are the best

Have you ever tried to find the solution for a problem that seems impossible? Has it ever put you in a position that you just don't know what to do anymore? Or have you ever just thought that you should just let things rip, let them roll. Untouched by human hands.
I find it's those times that I am willing to play the part as to sit back and watch. Even if I don't want to; it's like watching a bad TV show. You don't wanna watch it, but you wanna know whats happening. It's also those times that are the hardest. And I like that. I like having to figure out a solution; Weighing out the options... Until there is just one left. It gives me something to think about. (But, I does pull me away from school a little.) I like that feeling of going insane because I just don't know what to do. Why? Because it then gives me the chance to do everything. It gives me the chance to do everything I can think of. How? Because the only logical thing to do when you can't find an answer to a problem is to go on continuing your search. Now, I don't go running around doing stupid thing (at least I try not to...) I like to weigh out my options until I am left with the thing I will try. Really? NO!
Actually I have taken in this atitude that just make life so full of life. (Are you catching my drift?[ If there even is a drift.] )
I have suddenly stopped weighing out my problems and just done what I would never do before. I have decided to let thing roll; untouched by my hands I just sit back and watch which way it's going. I just have decided that lifes no fun if I'm to busy trying to control everything. So instead I have lived! And you know what?
I think it's the best decision I have ever made. Why? Because I have never been so alive! I have never lived with such openness to others. I have never wanted to be around others, I have never let other people truly in. (Yes, you my bloggers get the special seat. You get to read all my thoughts.)
So, I guess you could say I have finally warmed up.
My lifes dodge ball; I have always been on the outskirts just never being in any danger, never risking getting hit by a ball. Never being with the other people. I was onced told to stop being a sissy and get in the center of the square. And I finally did. I'm now with all the other people dodging the balls, having fun, joking around, just doing what I always observed others doing. I am now not only insane to my self, but I have suddenly decided to come out of my cave (CAVE?! Yes, cave I used to be like a hermit.) and spread some of my insanity with the world!
So, hope your okay with someone who walks the world upside down!
From you favorite blogger,

-나디아